Sleeping, mudding (aka: what my life used to consist of)

[same_sky]

I slept so badly last night. Actually, maybe I was channeling courtesy, who also had a little trouble sleeping this weekend. I was up at 3, even! Eerie! I was laying there trying to fall asleep again thinking it's 3:30 am on a Tuesday.. doesn't get much worse than this over and over (okay, so I was off by an hour.. hehe.) It really is a disgusting time of the week.. being at work an hour early this morning didn't really help much either.

Where does all the time go, anyway? I feel so busy all the time but yet I never get anything done. I guess tonight was a little unfair because I had Mosaic Minds work left to do so part of my evening was dedicated to that. (By the way! New issue of Mosaic Minds live!) Did I mention that I talked to group sex is communism an old friend of mine a few weeks ago? He asked what I'd been up to beyond the new job and the new city, and while I couldn't compete with his "oh, I moved to Japan and have been teaching for the last year and a half", I did tell him about being involved in Mosaic Minds, though I didn't say exactly how. I sent him the link but warned him that it was probably a bit girly for his tastes, but bless him, the first thing he said was that he really liked the design. And he didn't know it was mine. So that made me smile.

I miss the muds. I really do. They just make me so sad now. Most of the people have moved on and presumably are now productive members of society rather than slackers without a life.. I guess I fit into that category as well, but I don't necessarily have to be happy about it. The one I spent most of my time with now lives with me--which is so much better, but it still feels empty without him there. A couple left in a snit, a couple became snits, but for the most part.. I think the saddest part is that I don't even know those people anymore, but they were a big part of my life for a long while.. so when I do see someone, it's like talking to a near-stranger.

You're still waiting for me to explain it, aren't you?

Comments

[courtesy.livejournal.com]

Yes please :)

[same-sky.livejournal.com]

You know.. it's a good idea in theory but it gets a little more complicated in real life... ;) Actually, neither of us are entirely sure where it came from but it was a very serious discussion!

[paradisecowgirl.livejournal.com]

I can relate. There were a few years that were really special to me when I was very active with an online community. And I really miss the time when it was at its peak and everyone (just about) was involved for the joy of it and to help each other out.

But it all moved beyond that, so I more or less dropped out. I drop back in periodically but you can't really go back to something that's not even there anymore.

[same-sky.livejournal.com]

It's sad, but I guess it's inevitable. People grow apart irl.. but it's so much easier to do online when no one will show up on your doorstep if you stop calling... :)