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I got the rain I was wishing for.. it's been pouring all day long, which I'm really enjoying when I'm inside and dry. I had to do errands this morning, though, and so that rather sucked. Also, my car died just as I pulled out on the highway, which was a bit scary. It has a hard time with this much water. I was able to steer it into my parent's driveway and restart it, so it was no big deal, really. I just wish it would stop when M is driving home, but that seems more than unlikely at this point.

Why do I feel like I'm sabotaging my own efforts at writing this book? I don't dislike it after I get started. I don't usually feel unable to write after I've written the first few words. But for some reason, getting started on it is so hard. It's so much better for me if I write in the afternoons before M gets home, but now I've procrastinated until I won't be able to do it all before he gets home. I need to learn discipline. And how to make peanut butter fudge like my aunt does. Grainy, not creamy. Mmmm. I'd give my left pinky toenail for a good batch of fudge about now.
Cooking theorists, anyone? I believe the graininess (and yes, I really do want it somewhat grainy) is caused by too much agitation during the cooking process. Is that right? Stirring too much, thus causing sugar crystals to form? Or is it getting too hot? Anyone know?
Anyway, that was not where I was going with this journal entry. I really can't decide what I think of my book so far. I go back and forth on it. I can see some of its obvious problems, which will of course be fixed in the revisions.. hopefully. M and I haven't read each others books after the fourth day or something, but he kept saying "This is so good!" when he read through it then. I realized last night what the problem was. I think it's that I have well-written crap. (Keeping in mind that it's a first draft, at least.) I mean, my sentences are pretty good in and of themselves, for the most part. My words are varied, my characters have decently realistic dialogue, punctuation is in roughly the right places, very few typos or grammar problems. The problem is that my plot is leaking, my characters are one-dimensional, and there's not enough chemistry to speak of. My problems are structural, and that's what worries me the most. You can always fix run-on sentences, but can I fix it later if my MC is too wussy for the role? Can I add the chemistry back in after it's finished? I think that it's all fixable, but I'm already a little daunted by the task. Maybe I have the endurance to finish a book during this formulaic madness that is November, but do I have the talent to take that book and make something worth reading? I really don't know.
But I'm looking forward to finding out.

Why do I feel like I'm sabotaging my own efforts at writing this book? I don't dislike it after I get started. I don't usually feel unable to write after I've written the first few words. But for some reason, getting started on it is so hard. It's so much better for me if I write in the afternoons before M gets home, but now I've procrastinated until I won't be able to do it all before he gets home. I need to learn discipline. And how to make peanut butter fudge like my aunt does. Grainy, not creamy. Mmmm. I'd give my left pinky toenail for a good batch of fudge about now.
Cooking theorists, anyone? I believe the graininess (and yes, I really do want it somewhat grainy) is caused by too much agitation during the cooking process. Is that right? Stirring too much, thus causing sugar crystals to form? Or is it getting too hot? Anyone know?
Anyway, that was not where I was going with this journal entry. I really can't decide what I think of my book so far. I go back and forth on it. I can see some of its obvious problems, which will of course be fixed in the revisions.. hopefully. M and I haven't read each others books after the fourth day or something, but he kept saying "This is so good!" when he read through it then. I realized last night what the problem was. I think it's that I have well-written crap. (Keeping in mind that it's a first draft, at least.) I mean, my sentences are pretty good in and of themselves, for the most part. My words are varied, my characters have decently realistic dialogue, punctuation is in roughly the right places, very few typos or grammar problems. The problem is that my plot is leaking, my characters are one-dimensional, and there's not enough chemistry to speak of. My problems are structural, and that's what worries me the most. You can always fix run-on sentences, but can I fix it later if my MC is too wussy for the role? Can I add the chemistry back in after it's finished? I think that it's all fixable, but I'm already a little daunted by the task. Maybe I have the endurance to finish a book during this formulaic madness that is November, but do I have the talent to take that book and make something worth reading? I really don't know.
But I'm looking forward to finding out.