sleep

[same_sky]

I just thrust E at M and came in here to hide from my kid. She is doing the bedtime fighting thing and she has driven me absolutely up the wall. She was up for two hours last night, she fought her nap and managed to delay it for an hour and now she is kicking and fighting over going to bed. I know that people probably think I am a horrible sucker anyway for giving in to her over the bedtime thing, but most of the time, it doesn't bother me that badly. I mean, I sit in the dark for an hour reading Bloglines while holding a sweet baby, who might take that long to fall solidly asleep but she is usually pretty calm. Usually, she is asleep while eating. It's not preferable to her falling asleep easily on her own, but it's nice anyway. But when she is bad, she is horrid, and though I know that I am supposed to like, feel sympathy for her (her belly is clearly hurting her), when she is kicking me in the throat and twisting her little self around like that, I just get so mad that I can hardly stand it. And then that makes me feel like a crappy person because well, M is in there right now playing with her, and HE isn't mad at her. But then, he is not the one who got kicked in the face and neck and screamed on for an hour. She's twenty months old. I am still breastfeeding her like she was a freaking newborn. At this point, I rather feel like I am doing her a favor by letting her nurse to sleep instead of crying it out. She should thank me instead of freaking kicking me.

(In the long run, am I doing her a favor? Eh. Questionable, at best. But it's what she wants so she should bloody well appreciate it while it lasts, you know? 2009 is the year of weaning, after all! Of course, I didn't exactly send her the memo about it so I'm sure that's her excuse.)

And I almost just fell asleep. I guess it's time to go check on the baby and see if she's ready to try again. Silly baby. She was actually pretty good today, for the most part, except for the sleeping issues, so I am not generally unhappy with her or anything, just frustrated right now. Kids are weird.

Comments

[ms-jacket.livejournal.com]

Well you've got a very healthy baby so I say whatever you're doing, it must be right. I think 20 months is still young and don't think that it's the least bit strange that you're breastfeeding her. You're the one doing it, you know her best so when she's ready or you're ready, then it will be time. :-D

[same-sky.livejournal.com]

Yeah. :) I am getting a little ready to wean her but I know I'll miss it once I do so I'm in no hurry. I don't think she's too old for breastfeeding at all right now (except she doesn't seem to be interested at ALL in EVER stopping, so that's a little worrying...) I was mostly meaning letting her nurse to sleep. THAT is something I kind of wish she was ready to move on from because she should so be able to put herself to sleep at some point. ;) I hope.... :)

[ms-jacket.livejournal.com]

I know Linnea was still waking up at that age and my doctor said to try to just stay with her and soothe her but not feed her. I can't remember the age but I distinctly remember thinking, "Uh yeah that will never work." It took a few nights and I made sure that child at more during the day but I'm happy to say that she dosen't eat in the night now at 5. ;-) You'll figure it out at some point, but you shouldn't feel guilty for not wanting to be karate chopped.

[reebert.livejournal.com]

I can so sympathize with you over being basically beaten up by your child and then feeling bad/guilty because it makes you mad. Sometimes it even makes me mad at Robert when I finally do hand Sean over to him and they sit there all happy as can be playing and laughing. haha

[same-sky.livejournal.com]

I can see where you might be able to sympathize. We have big kids. Sean is bigger than E, I think, but she is still strong and there is so MUCH of her and I swear she has at least ten arms and legs sometimes.

I went in to check them out last night after I posted this and I still felt kind of annoyed at the whole thing but she was being SO cute that I had to get over myself sooner than I had planned...haha.

[helloheather.livejournal.com]

Oh, I have been there. All of it.

I swear I need a high five userpic.

[same-sky.livejournal.com]

Sucks, doesn't it? And she was so HAPPY when I went out to check on them. She was running around in a diaper that she kept removing, and laughing hysterically. Hard to stay mad at 'em, at least!